Tiffany Powers inner beautyI felt very inspired today to begin blogging again. My intuition kicks in and here I go writing. I wanted to write about families and how it effects seeing our inner beauty.

Growing up I didn’t have the easiest life and I lived with an alcoholic mother who was very abusive and a father who was absent, but when he was around was very abusive. What I learned was that life is chaos and I will never be safe. This is how I felt for many years even in adulthood. I also had a lot of issues on trusting other people…if I couldn’t trust my parents then could I trust the people in the world? Were they out to get my like my parents were? My self love was at a low level…and I didn’t know how to love myself or what it felt like. I really couldn’t imagine it at all. I saw my parents both as monsters and I felt trapped and like there was no way out. I was always trying to please them and I was hoping…if I live my life for my mother and my father or both…they would finally love me and approve of me. That plan backfired and I ended up being in a career where I wasn’t fulfilled or happy. I kept thinking I am living for you…doing what you want…being the person you want me to be…why can’t you love me? This left me feeling never good enough at life, as a person, ect. I was so angry…and I know this went both ways.

This energy was heavy and with me for years. It dictated my life…who I was…and how I thought about myself. Also because this energy was still present within me I would attract almost identical situations with people who weren’t my parents whether it had to deal with abuse, addiction, someone going against me, ect. I know this was happening because it was time to HEAL and creator and the universe were actually giving me a huge gift…to see this.

After taking my first Thetahealing course I did major healing on this topic. I worked on it every week, sometimes every day because it was the predominant energy in my life. The battling energy was getting old and it was sucking me dry. Anger can take up a lot of space in your life. It also can suck any energies that you are trying to use for manifesting…and that isn’t fun!

This is what I realized after some major healing. I realized that I had identified my parents as evil or negative and because our beliefs shape our lives then they played that role for me. It was time to release them of that role. I also realized that they had a plan for me and that my life needed to be or look a certain way. I had to let go of that because yes parents know what is good for us….but when we go to creator and ask what is the highest and best for us you may get a different answer for life path ect. For example my parents had wanted me to become a nurse and stick with the medical field….if I had continued down that road I know I wouldn’t be where I am today finally happy and free. I realized that I had to let go and release the energy of approval. Creator already loved and approved of me….so I just needed to approve of myself. I had to face the facts that I may never gain approval from my parents and have peace and also unconditional love from them. We had karmic ties from past lives…we had some negative things that were playing out because of that as well. The light bulb went off and healing was happening. This was so cool! Every day I was changing more and more…and this was super exciting.

I had gotten to the point to see how beautiful they were and their souls were. I had manifested them to play this role in my life and it served me well. Being stuck in the energy served me well too! How could I move forward if I replaying the same story in many areas of my life? I let the story go….it wasn’t me…it was something that I played a role in…but was it the true essence of me…no. I peeled back the layers of who I was before all of that and I saw the divine spark and my own beauty. I reconnected with that part of me and I loved her. This was the first time in years. I knew in this lifetime that I wanted to be the highest expression of me. If I was stuck in that energy I really couldn’t. I am also grateful to be able to connect with the Creator and ask…what is the highest and best for me…because I spent years confused…

For our healing it was the highest and best that we disconnected as a family. Together there was so much toxicity and battling energy. Even though on my end I created peace and forgiveness…on their end they were still holding on to the negativity. I had to release myself of holding on to the responsibility of it being my fault they chose not to heal…was it my fault…of course not. It was their choice. I became okay with all of that. I became peaceful with everything and saw the unconditional love.

Creator did some really cool things after I shifted. He sent me people in my life that became like family. They are so amazing. The kind of people that you can be around and you feel like they are home. You would do anything for them, and they the same for you. I still continue to meet them too and I believe they are my soul family. The energy is absolutely beautiful.

So in sharing this story…Today I live my life for me…I allow Creator to guide me and show me the way of my life. I check in what is the highest and best for me daily. I love me and who I am. I am not what happened to me…I am a divine spark of god the creator. Abundance flows in every area of my life and I no longer need to punish myself because I didn’t gain approval or unconditional love from my parents. I feel approval within me and unconditional love. I realized that it all begins with me. I am the co creator of my life…so what I need to heal will show up in my life. I also can choose the life I want to live and make it a happy and abundant one! I can trust people. Trust allows you to be vulnerable with people and in vulnerability is beauty. Also if I could see the beauty in people that I saw in one time as monsters I could see the beauty in everyone. We are all one. Unconditional love is here…I am one with it…it is one with me…and I am forever grateful. This was one of the biggest things I worked out in my healing journey and I feel like this has had the most powerful effect on my life. It all comes down to self love….and that is usually the base to most personal issues. If we can learn to love ourselves then we can be open to loving others.

The coolest thing out of all of this is that this patterns will not continue for future generations. 0;-) I get to work with families now…do healing work with them…and I absolutely love it. Family stuff can be a huge anchor in our lives. I am just grateful for Thetahealing and being able to change my beliefs on my family! I am happy and free <3

I hope this helps you in whatever way it is meant to help you- Many blessings to you on your journey.

-Tiffany Powers